She Almost Gave Up, But God — Now Available

The Devotional That Holds Your Heaviness

I’m both honored and terrified to finally share this.

My newest book, She Almost Gave Up, But God, is here! And saying that out loud still makes my chest tighten a little.

This book did not come from a polished place. It came from survival.

2025 was one of the hardest years of my life. I entered it already tired, already carrying the weight of prolonged stress, bullying, and a work environment that quietly eroded my mental health. Panic attacks became familiar. My body sounded alarms I could no longer ignore. I began seeing a psychiatrist, taking medication for anxiety and depression. Something I once insisted I didn’t need because I was still “functioning.”

I was getting up. Going to work. Paying bills. Cleaning my home.

On paper, I was fine.

In reality, I was unraveling.

In February, I resigned from a six-figure job with no backup plan. Choosing my life over my resume. In April, my grandmother was hospitalized. Forty-seven days later, she took her last breath. In June, my mother suffered a stroke, fell into a coma, and underwent brain surgery.

Grief did not come one at a time.

It arrived all at once.

I navigated loss, heartbreak, unemployment, fear, and faith that felt fragile at best. There were moments I asked God questions I had never voiced before:

Where are You? Are You listening? Am I being punished?

And still, through it all, I wrote.

She Almost Gave Up, But God was born in the quiet, unseen moments. The moments when I wasn’t the strong friend, the caregiver, the listener, or the one with the right words. I wasn’t writing as the therapist or the guide. I was writing as a woman inside her own life tired, questioning, grieving, hoping anyway.

This is my first devotional, and it is the most vulnerable work I’ve ever released.

Much like the woman reading these pages, I am the “she” in this story. The woman who broke in private and smiled in public. The woman who carried heaviness in her body for longer than she knew how to name. The woman who questioned everything, her strength, her purpose, her faith. The woman who almost gave up.

This 30-day devotional is an invitation to meet yourself and God, right there. Not after you’re healed. Not once you have answers. But in the middle. In the questions. In the ache. In the breath-by-breath choosing to stay.

These pages were written for the nights when your thoughts won’t settle. For the prayers that feel clumsy or incomplete. For the seasons when faith isn’t loud, but it’s still present quietly holding you up.

This book isn’t about having it all together.

It’s about showing up anyway.

Tenderly. Honestly. Faithfully.

You can purchase She Almost Gave Up, But God on Amazon.

In time, I will also be offering personalized copies for those who would like their book signed with a note or prayer written specifically for them. That offering will be shared soon, and I’ll make sure to announce when it becomes available.

Releasing this feels scary because it’s real. But I believe there is someone who needs to know they’re not weak for struggling. They’re not faithless for questioning. They’re not alone in almost giving up.

If that someone is you, this book is for you.

Thank you for being here. Thank you for reading. Thank you for walking this tender road with me. 🤍

*If this book meets you in any way, I’d be grateful if you left a review on Amazon—it helps this devotional find the readers who need it most. And if you feel led, take a photo with the book, or of the book in your space, and share it online. You can tag me at @ab.banks__ on Instagram, Threads, and Tik Tok. Seeing these pages land in real lives means more than I can put into words.